life in limbo

well it's been a while since i've updated the ol' bloggy blog.
if i remember correctly i last wrote from hawaii. well things have been just rolling along since then.  i returned to the great state of texas and began the job hunt right away.
after the initial interview and application - palooza the momentum seemed to dissipate. so now i find myself with plenty of time to evaluate my current situation.

unemployed.

although i have managed to employ my time with a few other activities in the meantime:
baked a loaf of bread that took third at the county fair.
rode my bike in a 25 mile race and was surprised to hear i got third there too.
made some panniers for the bike that will be my errand runner when i get set up in my own place.
i've hit up some junk stores and found some sweet treasures.
celebrated two family birthdays.
watched some retro movies and enjoyed them greatly.
joined a small group through church and made some friends in the process.
dispersed my resume to the ends of the earth through the "interweb" and contacts of contacts of contacts...
photographing my niece and nephews hard at play
day-dreaming about having a house or an apartment and a dog and a job and cooking for people and hosting movies nights and knowing neighbors and so on
reading some
watching lots of psych and what not to wear
crafting some
.....


as i am evaluating i am feeling a weakening in my resolve to not just take any job, or multiple jobs.... yet i remain. holding out for a job worth holding out for.

so starting tomorrow i will be substitute teaching. i am so very weary of loafing and being "that guy" who moves back in and then takes their sweet time to get up and moving and on with life.

this is taking much more perseverance and patience then i originally allotted for this season. but fortunately i am tapped into an eternal source of patience and endurance. and fortunately i am given the grace by God and my family to adjust to the circumstances and not live up to an impossible standard of success.

oh "success".... how we must constantly redefine it. as well as the terms "good", "important", "necessary"...etc...

so at any rate. here's to redefining things.
and evaluation.

and maybe keeping up better with life events and the funny things that happen....